Monday, June 26, 2006
Life Aches as you Age
Is it so wrong to choose how you want to live your life?I know my parents have sacrificed a lot for funding my education in Canada. Yes, in the first two years of my undergraduate program, I thought maybe I would just go home in the end because it was difficult for an international student to find a job here. However, the government has open the door a little more. Now, we are able to apply for post-graduation work program. As long as an employer is willing to hire us, we can apply for a 12-month work permit. Then, if things are well enough, the government might allow us to renew it.
I don't want to just return home without even trying to find a job here. The pay and incentives are so beneficial here. Currently, I am just not ready to return home for good. My parents are getting upset over this issue. They said that it is upsetting to know that I have plans to apply for permanent residence in Canada.
How can I explain to them? My mum says I am unfillial for not returning home. But what if I find the love of my life here? What if I marry a Canadian? I become a citizen of Canada automatically. Are they trying to say that I cannot find a husband here and that I need to revolve my life around Malaysia and my family only? What about my own happiness? Love doesn't just pop out of nowhere like that.
I feel it is so unfair, yet it hurts to know that your parents are upset. But it's not like I am abandoning the family! I just want to secure something of my own. I just hope they can understand that I need some time to just be on my own for a while. And I am thinking, if I can get citizenship in Canada, I can just return home to Malaysia because you don't need to live in Canada to be a citizen. I just want to build my own life first. I want to earn back that money and help my dad support my sister's education.
I don't want to return home yet. Either way, I still love my family very much. Is it so wrong ad unfillial?
